Sometimes people get back together, sometimes not. What often happens is the one that cheated (her) gets dumped, and wants their old life back… but usually the person that was cheated on (you) has moved to greener pastures with someone better, and is happier than they were before.
Whatever may happen in the future, I can tell you this: there is virtually zero chance of any reconciliation happening anytime soon. There is nothing that could be said to change anything right now. If you get the green light from the lawyer, your best bet is probably to go be with your family.
Don’t get sucked under. Adopt a fighting mentality, and fight for yourself every day. You can beat this. Put one foot in front of the other and move forward.
One day it won’t hurt anymore. Fight until you make it to that day.